Jack Jack

This is my son Jack William Axman. He was born on September 1st (also anthonys birthday), He was 7lbs 4oz 18 inches long. I love him to death. And its because i love him i placed him ofr adoption. Hes getting so big so quick. He is now 10 pounds or a little over and 22 inches or a little longer thats wat he was last time i checked with Clint and Marianne. He may be bigger by now who knows. All i know is hes so adorable!!! I see alot of me in him and hes just so adorable. The four days in the hospital were the best days of my life. When he was born he was so tiny and little he was so cute.

This is Jack smiling!!! His first smile and he did it three times unfortunatly Marianne only caught him smiling half way but its still so extremly cute!! I just love it when babies start to smile at everyone around them. Babies are just so darn cute and adorable and innocent and wonderful, and perfect absoulty perfect!! I miss Jack a lot but i know hes in good hands and hell always be loved by so many family members and friends. Hes just the perfect baby. I cant wait to see him continue to grow and develop. Thanks Clint and Marianne for the pictures :) I love them theyre so darn cute :) I love you guys!

Having a Blast the Whole Day

  So Yesterday i went to the mall with my bestie! It was so much fun [[as always]]. I love my best friend a.k.a. my big sister a.k.a Schellie! Weve been friends for like going on 6 years now :) Amazing how time flys by us so fast. I love Schellie, shes the best friend i could ever have. Everytime were together we just laugh the whole entire time and sometimes we dont even know the reson why were laughing hahaha. Schellie bring out my crazy side. She just makes it easier to bring the wild child out in me :) [[and not in a bad way]]. Im not all the shy and quiet when im around her its great and sometimes annoying when you cant get me shut up lol. She bring it out and me and i in her. Were both the shy type but once we get to know people and open up and little were much more comfortable in being ourselves and really loud. We talk about anything and everything together and we both know itll only stay with us which makes the frindship even stronger which i love! Weve been through a lot together, through thick and thin. Yeah weve had our differences and fights but we always get over them eventually. They never last longer than two weeks.

Yesterday was awesome we went shopping at the mall. We were looking for peices to put together for our halloween costume. We found the perfect shirt and the accesories to go along with jeans and boots :) Now we just gotta go back to get it cause we didnt have enough money lol. Were gonna be the best vampires out there!!! lol. The whole time we were at the mall we never stopped talking and it seemed like we never went two seconds without laughing at some point lol. It was great and we even got a cookie from great american cookie company!! I LOVE there cookies theyre the BEST! :) It was all around a very very good day, hopefully ill spend the night with her next weekend. I cant wait until halloween! Its going to be great! <3

  My dad also came home yesterday! I missed him soooo much! I always hate it when he had to go out of town its just too weird without him here all the time. I still havent gotten 100% used to it yet, of course it dosent help that he goes out of town one week and dosent go out of town for three weeks after that and then goes out of town again. If it was every single week i think it would be better and id be used to it by now but i dont know its still so weird. I need my daddy here with me i just feel better with him here. So i always have time to talk to him about whatever is on my mind. At least hes home for about two weeks or so. I love my dad so much. He is the best father i could ever want and ask for, the best father in the universe :) I can talk to him about anything and everything. And he always has the answer for any question have if he dosent hell get an answer for him :) I love him <3

  Today was General Conference. Unfotunatly we could watch it cause we dont have cable. But today was a pretty relaxing day over all. We just hung out and chilled all day as a family. Watched the cowboy game [[which by the way they sucked today! Thanks Romo!]] Oh well hopefully theyll do better next week. I even made chocolate chip cookies today! they came out really good. They came out like homemade chips o' hoy. Yummy yummy. Im getting better at baking. I really enjoy it, it helps destress and relaxes me. I really liked today it was really enjoyable. And hopefully tomorrow well be even better! <3

Time

Today was busy. The funny thing is that my mom and i planned on doing stuff yet we ended up doing a whole bunch of extra stuff we never planned on doing and barely had time to do what we actually planned on doing hahaha. But we eventually got some of what we wanted to do done but still have more running around to do tomorrow :)

  Wednesday should be really fun! Were having a get to know you/anyreason to celebrate activity for young women. I gotta pick up the yummy cake a day before. We found a really pretty one today. Cant wait for that it should be so much fun :).

  Other than that today was just a normal day. The noraml school work, normal frustrations and normal moments of feeling blue and down. im wondering when and if ill ever get over those moments. i guess time will tell. My only problem with time is it dosent go by fast enough for the bad things and it goes by way too fast for the best moments. i guess every moment should be cherished good and bad regaurdless. Time is something you cant get back so cherish it while you can. Yeah lets just go with that for now :)